Helpless
Feeling super duper helpless, heart broken. 3
Acting strong.
Sometimes I really don’t understand why some people want to act strong when they are actually breaking down. Break down just break down, want cry, cry. It doesn’t mean you are a crybaby or a weakling. Who said that? It really hurts me so badly to see my loved ones to be ‘I’m okay, I’m fine, no worries’ when deep in their hearts they are actually hurting so badly, saw them crying, I hugged them, they say they are fine. It’s pretty obvious you’re not fine. Faking a smile and all. What for? You are just suppressing these feelings when it gets stronger it would actually hurt you more. Just go ahead and cry. Soon after you have cried or being all emotional, you will find yourself being tired to become all these shit and actually wants to change the situation. This is called the griefing period. Hiding your feelings is just making me so damn worried, I can actually feel your hurt. :/ P/S: I want to be you girls, pillar. Please if you need, just cry on me, I’ll lend you my shoulders, my listening ears, if only you’re willing to. ♡
And yes, I do act strong sometimes, but when it becomes too obvious too hard, I don’t.
